ROAR!

So I finally came back home from school for a weekend.. ^_____^
And everything in my room is moved around.. >______<

Certain personal books and such were moved, or thrown away cuz they were "old". I had my mom swear that she would leave my room alone. That's all I ask of her. These papers and pictures I had up on my walls for three years all of a sudden got ripped and she just looks at me and says.."Oh well...no one was in your room since you left"...*shifty eyes*...just admit that you trashed some of my stuff. Then she got mad that I accused her of something so outrageous.

My sister actually bet money against my mom that I would spend more time this weekend hanging out with my friends than with my family.

Sometimes I feel like I'm better off being over 100 miles away from home 8 months out of the year.
My life is not average..My life is not Fuckable...My life is -ASDDFGHJKL-..and then some.

BLEEEEEH-..

So I'm back at school.

And I already want to kill myself.

I find myself already dreading waking up for my classes, and it sucks to be on your toes every minute of everyday because there are those on campus we do not wish to see; so that's always fun..ducking behind pillars, and running up stairs.

Yes, I can run, when need be necessary.

My classes aren't boring per se, but they tire the HELL out of me. I feel like I'm neglecting talking to all my friends, just because I need to focus all my attention on just my school work. If I don't get my GPA up, I'm most likely gonna get kicked out of here, and that would really suck. And everyone is telling me to party, and just forget about my shit for a while, but it's so FRUCKING HARD!

And my MSN has phucked me over...and it has me logged on, but I can't access it..*facepalm*

I say nothing anymore. I've stopped trying to dig my own grave. It gets messy.

I have such an obsession with Chae Yeon. <3

>^..^

It's been a while since I actually broke down and cried.
Not just physically, but emotionally broken.
I feel like with everything that's happened, each day I fall apart little by little.
I've never felt so lost in my entire life.
Over something so little, just got me crying and from there it just did a snowball effect.
I feel so drained of basically everything...

My hair...is getting shorter...

oy veh...=_=